What Am I Doing

Summer just sucked my blogging out of me.  It was a disappointing summer.  I hoped the shop would have more business.  I keep making changes.  Trying to find unique things to draw people in the door.  It is shocking how many people in this little village have never been through the doors.  I will never understand it.  We do not have very many shops in town.  Any time a new one opens, I am thrilled.  Of course I am going to go and see what it has to offer.  Just crazy to me.  But, there is nothing I can do about it. 
I am at a cross road.  Do I stay with this and continue to make change?  Hope eventually more people come through the door.  Do I make a major change and sink even more money into this place?  That would be turning into a fancy coffee place or getting ice cream equipment.  Each would be fairly expensive.  Biggest decision, do I walk away.  Do I admit I cannot make money doing this and end it? 
This is what is on my mind right now.  All tough decisions.  I have put way too much money into Coco's in the 14 months it has been open.  I have learned so much.  I have met so many amazing people.  It has allowed me to become more involved in my community.  It has allowed me to interact more with kids.  I love that.  So many positive.
There are negatives besides the huge one of not making money.  I get super bored.  I am not stimulated intellectually.  When business is slow, I start feeling down.  I refuse to let myself look at this as a failure.  No matter what I decide, this has been one of the most amazing things I have ever done in my life.
So people, there it is.  This is what consumes me right now.  I have a booth out of town this week-end.  Two weeks it is our Harvest Celebration in town.  After that, I look at making a serious decision. 
More to come.......